On pain and suffering and no answers

As we've walked, and continue to trudge through, our IVF journey, I've found myself questioning what I believe. I'm a Christian, most of the time. But questions about unanswered prayers, and where God is amid suffering and grief and pain have ...

Sugar Sugar Baby, Get On Down the Line, Part 2

Now where were we? Ah yes. We were talking about insulin. Let’s talk more about insulin. A lot more. Because if we don’t, you might come away with the idea that there’s something more important to talk about. There isn’t. ...

Christmas Cycles

So that period I was looking for 25 days ago has finally arrived! Right at exactly the wrong time. This cycle - the one where I took the Clomid (yes, I'm still in that cycle) - took 59 days. Tomorrow, I am ...

False hopes

Today is Cyber Monday. It is also day 35. After taking 200mg Clomid one last time, on the advice of our consultant, this is D-Day. No period by now meant one of two things: pregnant or the drugs didn't work. Sadly it's the ...

Here we go again…

We've done very well. We took a step off the fertility train in June after a failed IVF attempt, to lose 1-1.5 stone and then return for more. I have now in fact lost 2st, and John's lost just over ...

Sugar baby, get on down the line

John and Laura are pretty annoying, what with their games and science, so I have decided to kill them. I can't abide a stabby mess, so I've devised a fiendishly clever way to despatch them that'll never get back to ...

So what next?

A week after our negative result we were back at the clinic to talk with our consultant about the next steps. That week contained a lot of tears and sadness, but also a lot of gratefulness for what I already have. ...

A negative result

The test was negative. We were not surprised. Despite continuing medication as advised, by today my bleeding was very heavy, and had been so for a good 48 hours. I think we both still had a tiny glimmer of hope. But ...

The two week wait

Wow, it's been hard. When we first started IVF, our consultant told us the two week wait from embryo transfer to taking the pregnancy test would be the hardest part of the process. After our disappointment on egg collection day, I ...

Embryo transfer

We have gone for embryo transfer this morning. The embryo has done well overnight! We were told it had divided to two cells, and was graded as B on a scale from A-D (with A being the best). The transfer was smooth ...