Laura

Thoughts From The In Between

Every now and again I get some hope from somewhere. It floats past and I accidentally inhale it. But the high doesn't last, and ultimately I crash back to the reality of our situation. In July and August - just after ...

Moving on…or not?

I feel like I'm starting to mentally move on from this fertility journey. I've read blogs about the benefits of having an only child, and others about the adoption process. I'm pretty convinced these last two embryos won't work. I'm ...

A small reprieve

This miscarriage has gone on for much too long. Much longer than the first. The last time it happened I bled for just over a week and it was done. This time it has been almost 4 weeks, with a ...

Released from Anguish

Since our last miscarriage I have been relieved, happy, sad, grieving, angry, tired, hot, grateful, worried, anxious, joyful, restless, apprehensive, and a load of other emotions besides. At any given hour on any given day I may experience any or ...

Miscarriage #2

Our worst fear happened. As has so often been the case in this fertility journey. After a confirmation of the pregnancy on Monday last week, I was very anxious to get past Wednesday without any further drama. It was the equivalent ...

Mouse bladder goes the extra mile

Gosh, this last weekend was hard. Luckily it was full of love and laughter enough to distract me most of the time from the aching uncertainies following Friday's pregnancy test results. Saturday was spent at a dear friend's hen party where, ...

Positive…and Negative

We did the test today. At 5am I peed into a pot and we started with the Clearblue test, the fancy one that not only tells you if you're pregnant but how far along it estimates you are based on ...

How to support during IVF

I know many of you reading this blog are close to others going through IVF, and you've very kindly contacted me to say it's been helpful to know what they might be experiencing and how best to support them. So ...

Embryo Transfer #2 and The Two Week Wait

The transfer went ahead today with no hiccups. Well, the only thing that did go wrong was pretty major and totally my fault - I'd forgotten to tell John he needed to sign a consent form ahead of embryo thawing. But ...

Exhausted Panic

It's a day and a half until embryo transfer. This time, due to a change in procedure at the clinic, we will only get a call on Friday morning if there is a problem with the defrosting process. So no ...