Archive for November, 2018

Miscarriage Confirmed

After another marathon bladder achievement (10 hrs, my own PB), this morning we got the result "pregnant 1-2 weeks". And while this is suggestive of the hormones slowly seeping out of my system, it was still positive. And so to ...

This is just getting ridiculous

I retook a pregnancy test today, hoping to see "not pregnant" so I could stop taking the drugs and let my body finish what it began on Sunday. And drink wine tonight. I've been in a lot of pain and lost a ...

A Man’s Guide To Miscarriage

Before I start, I want to acknowledge an assumption/bias that I'm not going to try to avoid when writing about something so personal. This is going to be extremely heteronormative, because while I abundantly understand that IVF is something gone ...

Miscarriage #3

Well here we are again. Each time different but somehow also the same. Different patterns of bleeding, different activities I'm doing when I start bleeding and know it's over. But the same sense of terror, panic and utter helplessness as ...

Bleeding again

I have started bleeding again. It began as light spotting this morning but seems to be increasing with cramping now. I think this is the end. Again.

Certainly Positive?

Once more, my mouse bladder deserves an award. 7 hours! I was so determined to avoid the ambiguous results we got last cycle. Regardless of the outcome of the next few weeks, that feeling of relief at 5am this morning ...

2 Week Wait From Hell

Gosh this is turning into quite the two week wait (2WW). Previous 2WWS have been a walk in the park by comparison. On Wednesday morning, 7 days after embryo transfer, I began bleeding. Not a lot of blood, but enough to be ...

An early arrival…

Tomorrow is a week after embryo transfer. My pregnancy test date is next Thursday, 15th October. Today I began bleeding. It's rather light at present, but I know from past experience that this is probably the end of this cycle. I'm cramping ...

Embryo Transfer #4

At 9.30am we met the (now familiar) embryologist to discuss the state of our 4th embryo. The last two FET cycles have involved an afternoon embryo transfer, meaning our embryos have had a few hours to rehydrate and swell back up ...